Sad

i am a failure. i am stuck. i try my best to make my parents happy. i cant study yet i cant make my parents disown me. it's a curse to have me.

For your info, i am not emo-ing. i am stating a fact/difficulty in my life.

i am a boring person because i had been forced to be a adult, and to face this world alone since i was a kid.
i am a sad person as i have never experience true happiness in my own burrow since i was a kid.
i do not know how to love for i had never experience the sweetness of love.
And i would fly so high that i will die of suffocation due to the high multitude and low oxygen level because i had been heavily deprived of freedom and the defiance and rash nature that had set in me.
I blamed my parents but i was told they were not to be blamed.
The only person i can blame is, myself.
It's fate that i led such a life.
it's fate that brought this upon me.
when i later found out that fate was just a reason for people to escape reality and responsibility,
i resigned.
i resign myself to life.

ps: i had been diagnose with ADD(Attention Deficit Disorder) by my psychiatry.