just another mediocre sunday

today, my mood had been pretty good.

after nearly 3 weeks of absence from church, i finally decided to go back "home".
been going through some couselling. hopeful it will aid me in my ability to face the hash reality of life.

i suspect that i have mild bipolar disorder. at times i just feel on top of the world and at times, i feel like i am falling down a bottomless pit. when i am down, everyone around me gets affect, i feel really dejected and guilty for bringing such distressfulness to every living soul around me.

But all these bad things aside, i am really looking forward to entering Poly.
My DREAM(note: its only a dream) of getting 12 points for o levels seems like mission impossible. Nevertheless, i will preserver.(just hope my preserverance can last me long enough before another breakdown/burn out/lowkey/meltdown.)

tomorrow i am going to see a physiatrist regarding my concentration problem.
let hope i get it healed up, at least 1 less issue to tackle.
wish me luck and pray for me.
thank you
fraser
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