Dreadful life

haiz. saw my psychiatry once more. costed me $324 this time round.
when i saw the bill, i almost wanted to jump down from the office.
just within this month, i had spent $772 just my medical bills.

I free so bad wasting so much of my parents money.

anyways,

after taking medicine, i no longer feel anything. ANYTHING AT ALL. all i do is stare at the wall,
and only talk to people when being talked to. my brain feels so~ dead.

that was the only time in my life when i dun fear neither death nor hell. i can picture myself stuffing down all the medicine the psychiatry prescribed to me and see myself foaming at my mouth lying on my bed with the door locked.

haha, that just some imagination.

well, i can only hope life gets better.

today, i am in a rather happy mood.

lets hope tomorrow gets better.

=D