A Night At East Coast Park

Lol... Fun... went there, set up tent, start fire, BBQ food and Dig in. Yummy. haha
Had, beef steak with sliced Orange and Green capsicum, asparagus grilled along with alcohol.
Had salmon grilled lightly with pepper. Had honey grazed grilled chicken. Had many many meat balls and lots and lots of hot dog. Did not sleep at all.

Quite a night to experince. Was Fun

Night Fall.

Playing Psp in tent lol.

Meditating.

Me and Mr.Bear doing Yoga LOL.

3 of us.

Woah. Nicest picture ever taken of me.

Thnk you my dear Mrs.Maran.

Sun finally rised.

Thats me. Mr.EmoDepresso

Fraser.

Blogging Once Again.

Really busy this few days.
Went Clubbing,
Went to the Malay night bazaar,
Went to watch Disaster Movie
(no wonder they name it Disaster Movie, really sucky show.)
Always Not enough sleep.
Know a lot of people.
Not bad, widen my social circle.

Then tonight Mrs.Maran, Mr.Bear and me gonna spend our night camping at eastcoast park.
Soooo coool... We are gonna hav red wine, Grilled Chicken, Nice music and a cosy tent. lol.
Will update the rest tomorrow when i get home
=P

A whole day of outing

When out to the gym in the morning with mr.bear to the gym.
After that, went to queens town with mr.bear to buy shoe.
After finish shopping, when to meet mrs.maran to get her skirt at far-east.
End up both got nothing. zzz -.-
But it's ok at least they did not waste their money buying something they might not be comfortable in.

My sleeping problem seems like its coming back. Feeling very lethargic in the day time despite at least 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep.

Still thinking about k once in a while.
Especially when there are things that resembles k.
I just cannot help it.

"Better in time"

by Leona Lewis.

[chorus]

thought i couldn't live without you

its gonna hurt when it heals to

it'll all get better in time

even though i really love you

i'm gonna smile cause i deserve to

it'll all get better in time

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since there's no more you and me

its time i let you go so i can be free

and live my life how it should be

no matter how hard it is ill be fine without you

yes i will

My(final) poem for K.

before, after and then finally good bye.

Before i met you -
I looked forward to nothing, and life is meaningless.
I hated life and thought, why am i even here in this universe.

When i first met you -
Every time i see you, i feel happy and revitalised.
Only then i realised, i finally had a purpose in life.

After getting to know you -
I think about you day and night.
My life was in darkness but you were my light.
The thought of you makes the gloomiest day bright.

When i fall for you -
Although you meant the world to me, you were never ever mine.
Its only fair that i left you alone, to carry on, without any binds.
Thanks for the memories, though i wished i never had.
Because every time i think about you i would feel extremely sad.
At time i will even cry because it hurts me real bad.


My final Thoughts for you -
Although I'll always say i only treat you as a friend, deep inside me, i know its a lie
I really love you but this time, I would have to say good bye.

Written By Fraser.
Only For K.

This will be the last thing i would ever post online about k.
I had decided to stop seeing k.
Farewell.
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i ment every single word about it.

sad and emo day

Damn i m feeling so sad... i dun know if i m love sick or what... why do people call it heartache when my whole body is aching... haiz... no i did not get rejected(because k is still attached thus i did not even confess)... its just how things had been going on between us...

i really hope its not all one sided... do you not feel the even the slightest bit of my affection for you?

i can feel my emotion sinking even after a run(which is supposed to make people feel good due to the production of endorphins.) What should i do next? Carry on as though everything is fine? or forget about k and move on?
but what if i cannot forget about k?

Damn this godforsaken love. Just feel like giving everything up.


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REFLECTION

i still have God, i can still turn to Him, He knows me best.

Be with me O Lord. Strengthen me. Only He will never give up on me or break promises.

Just another day

slept at 5am Woke up at 12+ but still very tired coz i tired to drug myself. -.-' the medicine didnt make me high instead make me damn tired the whole day. lol.. i think wrong drugs. so tired and sleep that i slp at 4pm. Then K (see 1 week after ord!! to know who k is) called me say going to hg gym. Then went gym with K but didnt work out. keep having stomach ache. followed K all around the gym. quite happy to go out and see K. walk K to hougang mall then take 101 bus back home.
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now planing my trip to kl with mr.bear and mrs.maran
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God, please grant me wisdom in everything i do or plan. Thank you God. Love you God.

1 week after ord!!

LOL.. Everybody told me that i would feel lost if i did not have plan after Ns but honestly, i my plan was to slack, which was not actually a proper plan... haha.. and i do not feel lost...

My health and my mental strength is slowing recovering to how it was before i had sleeping problems.. i have to thank everyone that prayed for me..

Recently met someone(a name i gave: 'k') that is really cute and outgoing nevertheless, attached...
haha hope that someday, if God permits, we'd be together.. (no details would be given just yet till things are stablised).

K and i watched movie our 1st movie...

4bia... i do not really like horror movies but that show was quite okay. or maybe i had grown up. who knows =X
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Cannot wait to go overseas with my family. going thailand.. than after that going KL with my dear maran and bear... haha.. so happy...

Finally ORD-ed!

Morning Went to church. Had a speaker from India. He came with a massage telling us that God is going to bless us and quoted a few verses.

Went to Grapevine to chill with my dear Mrs.Maran & Mr.Bear straight after church.Was really tired.











Me(Left)
Bear(right)
Maran and me(Bottom)











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REFLECTION



Have to thank everybody from the bottom of my heart especially those that have encouraged and push me through the pass 2 years of my life.


Army had made me more superficial(maybe practical would be a better choice of word but who knows). i do not like who i had became. made me more inhumanely. made me lose the sensitive side of me. now i cannot feel what other people feels. oh God. Please change me. Those are not the qualities your want us to have.

Tomorrow ORD!

Finally. the day i that i had been long anticipating finally arrived. Accordingly to directives, every Ord personal is to complete a clearance form with signatures of all their Superior. for me, all can be obtain expect my RSM(regimental sergeant major) the 2nd biggest Fcuk in my company. He is away on leave. Damn. pray that there would be a way out. i dun mind not getting my pink ic yet. as long as i finish serving my liable period, and its officially over, i am fine with anything.

well, finally got rid of my old phone M600i and got myself a new camera phone C902. 5 mega pixel. Small screen and hang on quite a regular basis. Bought myself a GATSBY HI-BLEACH. Me getting ready to welcome my old self(original self). LOL.

Last but not least before i end off my blogging today, i really sincerely wish that everyone from 3discom would lead a better life there. Though somethings need not be brought up, even the blind can tell whats becoming of discom. i would keep the welfare of discom in my prayer. (it needs lotsa prayer).

Thank God this little part of my life is finally over. Time to move on to the next phrase in life.

wonder how many more phrases i m left with before returning home to my heavenly father.

Good bye my Hp u had served me well.
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LOL time to get vain. =P

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Good bye Army

4 days away from ord

Finally computer ok liao... damn sian... now still once in a while will blue screen and auto shut down... actually not very excited about ord... the feeling is different from 5 month ago when it comes to thinking about ord... perhaps is because of clearing offs and leaves that allow me to slowly adjust to the civilian world... after ord intend to work a bit to wait for schl reopening... me going to study nitech in multi-media... after that go poly and get into business informatics... and then finally after getting diploma, go to my dads company to help out... Crossed fingers hope that i will do well this time...

after all this so many days of "sicklyness", i finally return to my gyming routine. wahaha... 1st thing i wanna do after i ord is to DYE MY HAIR!!! yehaaaa!! lol... i like to get myself high for no reason...
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